At this point in my life, I am hanging between my past and my future. I no longer find interest in my doll family, yet I do not have real children of my own to care for. I no longer have the careless joys of childhood, nor do I have the responsibilities of a married woman, a wife and a mother. I am at a place in between who I was and who I hope to be.
Most days are filled with questions and confusion. Where is God taking me? What is His will for my life? Am I listening for His voice? If He calls, will I hear? Is God who I have been told He is, or is He someone so much more than that? Can I even claim to know Him for myself, or am I walking around on borrowed faith?
In the midst of all these questions, and the confusion of who I am and who God is, I am only completely sure of one thing. God
is real, and He
does love me. He will never let me go, or even let me travel one step of this life alone. Knowing this is such a great comfort. Knowing I have a Friend who will never leave me... Words fail to describe the peace this knowledge gives me.
How can I be sure? Because, time and time again He has proven Himself. He was there all those nights when I could not sleep for the nightmares. He was there the month I did not get to see my mother after my baby brothers were born and I was so homesick. He was there when my grandma died. He has always been there. When I was a little girl huddled under the blankets shivering with fear as lightening flashed and thunder boomed. When I was beginning my teen years and had such a rocky start and thought no one loved me. And now as I am a young woman looking for direction for the future He is still with me. I know God is who He says He is because I feel His love every day of my life.
In a day and age when we are not sure where we will get the money for next months bills, whether we will have a job by then or not, and when we fear the worst concerning the future of our nation, in an age where fear reigns, it is so comforting to know that we are not alone. God is with us and He will never leave our side. Even in the darkest of nights.
You're not alone for I am here.
Let me wipe away your every fear.
My love I've never left your side.
I have seen you through the darkest night,
And I am the one who has loved
All of your life.
--Meredith Andrews
"You're Not Alone"