Monday, June 1, 2009

Not Alone

At this point in my life, I am hanging between my past and my future. I no longer find interest in my doll family, yet I do not have real children of my own to care for. I no longer have the careless joys of childhood, nor do I have the responsibilities of a married woman, a wife and a mother. I am at a place in between who I was and who I hope to be.

Most days are filled with questions and confusion. Where is God taking me? What is His will for my life? Am I listening for His voice? If He calls, will I hear? Is God who I have been told He is, or is He someone so much more than that? Can I even claim to know Him for myself, or am I walking around on borrowed faith?

In the midst of all these questions, and the confusion of who I am and who God is, I am only completely sure of one thing. God is real, and He does love me. He will never let me go, or even let me travel one step of this life alone. Knowing this is such a great comfort. Knowing I have a Friend who will never leave me... Words fail to describe the peace this knowledge gives me.

How can I be sure? Because, time and time again He has proven Himself. He was there all those nights when I could not sleep for the nightmares. He was there the month I did not get to see my mother after my baby brothers were born and I was so homesick. He was there when my grandma died. He has always been there. When I was a little girl huddled under the blankets shivering with fear as lightening flashed and thunder boomed. When I was beginning my teen years and had such a rocky start and thought no one loved me. And now as I am a young woman looking for direction for the future He is still with me. I know God is who He says He is because I feel His love every day of my life.

In a day and age when we are not sure where we will get the money for next months bills, whether we will have a job by then or not, and when we fear the worst concerning the future of our nation, in an age where fear reigns, it is so comforting to know that we are not alone. God is with us and He will never leave our side. Even in the darkest of nights.

You're not alone for I am here.
Let me wipe away your every fear.
My love I've never left your side.
I have seen you through the darkest night,
And I am the one who has loved
All of your life.
--Meredith Andrews
"You're Not Alone"


Jeremiah said...

Ok, Have you read a book called "Growing up Christian"? It helped to show me where I was at in my teenage life. Great read.

Another thing to keep in mind is that we can sit in one place for years asking God what his will is for our lives. But While you wait patiently for the Lord, just do something. (That is, for Christ.) There is always opportunities to serve in Gods kingdom wherever you are. Don't spend all your time asking about his will for you. Spend the Majority of your time looking for ways to serve in Gods kingdom. Nothing takes a stab at pride like being a servant. "Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth." Matt 5:5.

Kaomi said...

No, I have not read the book "Growing up Christian." I will look into it for it might help my younger siblings wade their way through the teen years and have an easier time of it then I did. Thanks for telling me about it.

Yes, I believe that we should work while we are waiting. That is why I love John Waller's song "While I am Waiting" from the Movie Fireproof. I do not believe we should waste our time waiting on God to tell us every little thing, like whether we should leave our house every day, :) but I do think we each should seek His will diligently. Sometimes His will is for us to wait, to be still, to pray. Those are hard times, but a part of our lives a Chirstians. I would much rather be in action then having to wait, but God knows that in waiting we grow.

Pride is an issue everyone of us needs to deal with, and will need to deal with our whole lives. Being a servant is a good way to work on not being prideful, as long as you don't get proud of yourself for serving better then others. :) Pride rears up its head from every side. It will always be a battle and there is no quick cure.

Thanks for commenting. It is cool to know a little about those who follow our blog.

Julie said...

Hey I really liked the post I am there right now trying to listen to God and figure out where he wants me.

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I just wanted to say that I did not deleted the above comment because it was in any way bad. In fact, it was very good. I removed it for personal reasons. I enjoy hearing from my readers, but if at anytime I should feel the need to remove any comments, I will do so. It is my right as a blogger. But, I do not want it to keep you from commenting. I would love to hear what you have to say.